Its a Gloomy day

Well, there is so much happening to me at the moment, not that I am overwhelmed by it, in fact I am someone who likes to be immersed in her going arounds. You know, the busier it is, the happier I am, because then my stupid mind does not bring unnecessary thoughts to me. Anyway, currently I feel down, shattered, angry and frustrated like many of my Indian fellows not just because what happened in the last few days, but more because we still don’t see the much needed reform being brought in, we still don’t see the long-long slept conscience of our worthless politicians arising. Anyway, enough has already been and still being said. I only hope God gives them enough sense to implement theat. Please God, it will do even if it’s momentary, but LET THEE BE SENSIBLE.

Now this was from the nations side, but there is also a change happening from the personal front. I feel little scared of myself sometimes, because never ever in my life have I thought of what will happen to me in future, but this time I am, and this is scaring me, because its stupid to be worried about the future. It scares you, because you cant think that everything will be wonderful, because everything cant be wonderful, as life would have been perfect, and its not. So you will think about the bad things happening and that is bound to make you feel bad. So basically you will be sad about something that hasn’t happened at all!! So its very bad thinking about the future, its better to let things happen naturally, keep your head down, do your work, and leave the rest to God. Yesss..this is what I have got to do. Good that I got to it finally by writing here.

Humm..think that’s enough for today. Work Calling!!

Happy

So the poem below (you know…the collection of lines..in the previous blog, if you can call it a poem that is!!) is my perception of this in this city. It’s a reflection of the fact that you feel so tiny in the vastness of this giant place and don’t even realize how much deep are you immersed into the hustle-bustle.

By the way, somehow I am finding myself in a relatively happier mood nowdays. Don’t ask me the reason, as I am always so vague with reasoning..seriously..I am like, I contemplate in my mind for several long miniutes about a thing and then get to the most obvious reason for something that others get to in seconds.. and that too..very naturally!! Anyway, that’s not the point..the point is, I am happy..and the reason might be that I shopped for some rally funky stuff this month (though I still don’t know when and how am I going to utilize it..as I work in the boring software world where you have a proper guideline of what to wear and what not to wear!! Trust me!! It actually happens..Human Rights!!Anybody listening?? Pls HELP) whatever it is..its a nice feeling..i am up and unplugged..and I hope it stays longer..wohooooooooo

P.S-- And just now I realized, Italics irritate sooo much!! So I have chaged the style of my blog..hope it looks fine now.

Little more Rambling!!

The Wakeup call rings,

Brings in a Sigh,

Yet another day has begun

Just to pass by.

You set out yet again,

To make it an EXTRAordinary day,

You step out of your house,

And the EXTRA blows away.

However much you try,

You will always be part of a Rat Race,

Its become such a long queue,

Someone is gotto be ahead.

So why don’t you just take a pause,

to think, to take a break,

That it doesn’t matter how different you are,

But the difference that you make.

So, any clue what it means?? Ok, dont bother to answer that one..Even I dont know ;-))

Be Happy

Be Happy.
That you have one more sunset to see
Be Happy
That you have one more day to Glee
Be Happy
That you have one more try to choose what not to mind
Be Happy
That you have one more moment to be kind
Be Happy
That you have one more day at the center of chaos
Be Happy
That you have one chance to listen to someone's boohoos
Be Happy
That the world is still running
Be Happy
That the birds are still singing
Be Happy
That the Miracles happen
Be happy
That the god listens
Be Happy
That the chances are still bright
Be happy
That the hope is still in sight

Reserches

Sometimes I think, you know with all these advent of Science and Technology, the way we have come so far, and the realization of how far we have yet to go, so scientists is all parts of the world are carrying out researches which are supposed to give us more insight on us, the way we are, the way we behave etc. But I don't understand sometimes what to believe of these researches, I mean one research says, Eggs are healthy for us, another says they are not. One says Milk is good, another says taking Milk is harmful.The point I think is, if you go on doing to much analysis, nothing can be said specifically, because at the core everything reacts differently to different things.
So getting what I want to say? NO!!
Don't bother, even I don't!!
P.S. - Most of the time ;-)

You are here

So, I have just finished Meenakshi Reddy Madhavan's much talked about book 'You are here'. When I first read about it (in some newspaper), I had a great anticipation of reading a book, which talks about women of our generation, something I thought I'd be able to relate to. However as I actually started reading it, I realized I was not at all able to relate to any of its characters. Then I braced myself thinking, it might be because I come from a different social background and all, but even after that, I did not find anything at all in the book, which I can even call appealing, let alone worth reading. You know all the time I was reading it, searching for one single thing which will make me say, 'yeah, its nice', but NO!! I found I was expecting too much of Ms. Madhavan, I mean for all it might just have been a random collection of hundreds of her blogs she has written over the years. Its not even a good timepass. See -- There is no story, and every time something comes up, where you sense a beginning of something interesting, it has to precede first with some random and extra long flashback of some entirely uninteresting past, and more so totally unrelated to the thing going on in present, and it all burst as it had popped up..

I am not sure thought you know, I mean I might be a little harsh, due to that fact that I was expecting too much out of it, but still I'd say, it does not account for a good reading at all, and have read some good books (HummYeah..I think I have!!)

Being Women

I wonder how boys can come up every time and comment on how a girl or women is looking fat, out of shape or whatever worse adjective they can come up with. And I can bet all girls, once in their life have asked a question that what is it that makes boys to comment on how a girl is looking, or rather 'should look'. I mean who are you to decide on what are the correct bodily measures for a girl? I mean they sometimes wont even show the decency of not commenting about it in public, and here, I am talking about they guys you know, like you buddy, brother or some colleague you are quite friendly with. They all have got this right about asking you a question if you get that little nanometer out of your normal frame.I can imagine what was it that made only girls to take all the pains in the world to look beautiful, and wats more, you are not considered as a appealing person if you do not do that. Never mind!! I think its just one of the endless unfair things we come across everyday, and care of give a thought about.

Its me!!

Trapped in a confusion

I live kindda hibernamted life

Just looking, listening at things

And not doing a single thing.

Knowing all is a problem in itself

And wats more!! I know that I know it all..

And still here I am

Mere spectator of the world around me

And so less a part of it..

I wonder what will make me change

What it will be that will make me change

Or more, if ever there will be anything that will make me change

I wonder..I think.. and still all this time..

I remain just the same..

Sarkar Raj

It's a gloomy day. One more of several of its kind. I do not feel geared up for my work. Neither do I feel like studying nor for anything else. It's just like one of those days when you just don't feel like doing anything. The problem is, I am having such days pretty frequently ;-( So, the funda is, we'd be happier if we try to be what we want, and not what we are supposed to be. I really like and appreciate the people who are actually doing that.
Saw Sarkar Raj yesterday. Ram Gopal Verma has managed to recreate the magic he once was supposed to be possessing. All the Bacchhans look excellent and deliver even more excellent. I am really impressed by Abhishek now, and I'd really like to ask this to all the people who just love to criticize Aishwarya, what'd you all say after Jodha Akbar and now Sarkar Raj. The lady has constantly proved herself and I can't help but love her more after Sarkar. She has delivered a very decent and mature performance, and not once you can think that the same heroine worked in Jodhaa Akbar as well.
And I don't think I can ever think of anything that matches with Mr. Amitabh Bacchan. I just say "You are eternal Sir!!"

I Love Google

I've never been a net savvy, considering the fact that I never had a computer of my own, but being in software induatry gives you this oppertunity of endless hours of net surfing, coz obviously you will have your own machine, obviously connected to internet, and you are obviously supposed to work on it, and obviously you will find many hours where you have nothing to do, so you will just play with it. So that's when it starts and you use google for everything ranging from tickets booking to eat-out searches. And what's so amazing is you can practically ask anything to google and it will give you a supposedly correct answer to it. I mean I have tried it all the time. Google solves nearly all questions of my life. Sometimes I feel, with almost half of the earth using it, and considering it a prt of their daily life, google has not just reamined a search engine. It has become more of a phenomena, a person who we live with, and yes... I love living with it!!!

Oh no, not again!!

I think politicians in our country have not just got anything better to do, except from dragging the poor cheergirls (ok, I admit they might not be that poor though, its just a figurative expression.) into controversy and trying to snatch their job, or telling Shah Rukh Khan or Amitabh Bacchan or some other celebrity every other day, that something he did sometime in his films was wrong in some way. Please give us a break!!!

For instance our health minister Mr. Ramdoss said, SRK spread alcoholism (I wonder if this is the right word, anyway I hope you'd be able to get the sense anyway!) in OSO by doing a scene which shows him badly drunk. I'd like to tell Mr. Ramdoss that people in our country are old enough (pity. The same can't be said on education front), to see what's good for them and what's not. I mean for this matter, youngsters do not even listen to their parents when it comes to their likes and dislikes, so how will it be that they will be so moved by just a scene in a film, which can not even be called excellent!!
Please mister Health Minister, you have enough pressing health issues in our country to last you a lifetime, without you requiring turning your head to what or what not the filmstars are representing in their movies. Please try to make some sense when you speakl next time in public.

Who'd take it from here?

Yesterday night, we went to a restaurant for dinner. It was a pretty decent place, in a posh area, and all the crowd consisted of sophisticated looking families. As we were deciding on our dishes, I got to see a young boy cleaning tables there and picking up plates. He must be aging somewhere in between 11 to 14 years. He looked quite out of place, you know, means all the other staff there was adult, except this little boy.
I mean, not that, its very uncommon in our country, I mean, yeah, we have adapted ourselves quite well with the daily sightseeing of children bagging, or selling small goodies at traffic signals, or working as a Chhotu, in roadside dhabas. But still, I don't know why, that boy strike me as different, I called him to our table, tried to ask him, "Do you work here all day long?" You know, thinking that he sight be working part time, and going school in day time. But he did not care answering my question properly, murmured something and went away.
Clearly, he understood, what I was trying to ask, and did not want to answer it. Talking to me in details about his personal life might have caused him his job, and he knew it. So he also knew perfectly well, that he is supposed to be studying and not working in hotels, and that this is not only illegal but also a crime. So he refrained himself from talking out of it.
It was like; mind your own business madam!! You do not need to do social service where it is not desired.
What I realize is, we Indians, do not make our choices based on what we want, but we make them on the basis of what we are supposed to be. So the kid might have wanted to study, he knew if he made some effort he might've succeeded in it (government is making some effort for such children), but he was not doing it. the reasons behind which, should not be a problem for us to think of. So this poor, illiterate population is not there only because they are not getting proper facilities or whatsoever. It is also because; they don't see education making drastic changes to their living standard. It's because they have completely lost faith in the government, and in the fact that country's progress depends upon them and vice-versa. It's because this wave of economical growth, globalization and rupee getting stronger, is doing nothing for them, except making rich even richer, and poor getting poorer.Now can somebody take it form here???

Reality shows!!

Sometimes it so happens that you know so much, and you just don't know how to put it precisely. Yup, that's what my problem is, I know everything but, how to be more assertive and present it firmly to the other person, and ther are many moments in a day, where I feel, the lack of it is killing me!!!
Anyways, let's talk about a few social issues, my favorite stream, (sometimes I feel I would have been doing better as a Sociologist!! I mean what am I doing here in IT, you know IT!!! Anyways, the rapid way, that we are changing with now, I don't think, even those big sociologist are doing their job.) For instance, what is with these reality shows!! I mean, I hardly find anything real about them. First they are (almost all of them) celebrity oriented, and don't give chances to the common people. Second, the drama quotient is such shows is so high, you start wondering, whether they are judged on the basis of their performance, or the drama that they show up there!! And finally, man!!, I find them so senseless, I mean what do we gain by constantly producing these good for nothing singers, dancers and all these so called entertainers???
When you come to think of it (if at all you care to put some thought, when you watch them) the quantities of such shows has reached so high, that they've even started kind of recycling them. Shows where, the performers of all other shows turn up, and compete once again!!And to top it all, we again have celebrities who judge them. So far I have not been able to recognize their credibility in these shows. Because, at the end, it's only the so called audience voting that decides the winner!!And you still do not know what happens at the backstage. Sometimes I think, can we take any rubbish, if it comes in from of entertainment? And does entertainment only mean senseless time pass like this? I wonder how long would it take before we come out of this intellectual drought!!

I am back!!!

Yeah..One day, I got up, inspired by a good friend, my boyfriend and my own self, and started writing bolgs. THinking to turn the world upside down by the fire within ;->> but nothing much happened and the bubble burst, like it was never tehre!! But I am back now, with a promise that I will prove to be a regular this time. I hopw with this bolg writing, I will be able to define myself some day..and yes..also achieve Selfactualization (Got it from Pricess DIaries, my recent read!!).
By the way, can someone tell me how to make your blog visited by many people(apart from writing it very intelligent and interestingly, which I dont think I am doing at present.) But please, if someone knows, let me know, how you make most poeple read your bolg..

Actually, I want more inspiration, that there is at least someone, who is listening to this undefined soul. You know, it can be a way for me to define myself!! really..