Its a Gloomy day

Well, there is so much happening to me at the moment, not that I am overwhelmed by it, in fact I am someone who likes to be immersed in her going arounds. You know, the busier it is, the happier I am, because then my stupid mind does not bring unnecessary thoughts to me. Anyway, currently I feel down, shattered, angry and frustrated like many of my Indian fellows not just because what happened in the last few days, but more because we still don’t see the much needed reform being brought in, we still don’t see the long-long slept conscience of our worthless politicians arising. Anyway, enough has already been and still being said. I only hope God gives them enough sense to implement theat. Please God, it will do even if it’s momentary, but LET THEE BE SENSIBLE.

Now this was from the nations side, but there is also a change happening from the personal front. I feel little scared of myself sometimes, because never ever in my life have I thought of what will happen to me in future, but this time I am, and this is scaring me, because its stupid to be worried about the future. It scares you, because you cant think that everything will be wonderful, because everything cant be wonderful, as life would have been perfect, and its not. So you will think about the bad things happening and that is bound to make you feel bad. So basically you will be sad about something that hasn’t happened at all!! So its very bad thinking about the future, its better to let things happen naturally, keep your head down, do your work, and leave the rest to God. Yesss..this is what I have got to do. Good that I got to it finally by writing here.

Humm..think that’s enough for today. Work Calling!!

Happy

So the poem below (you know…the collection of lines..in the previous blog, if you can call it a poem that is!!) is my perception of this in this city. It’s a reflection of the fact that you feel so tiny in the vastness of this giant place and don’t even realize how much deep are you immersed into the hustle-bustle.

By the way, somehow I am finding myself in a relatively happier mood nowdays. Don’t ask me the reason, as I am always so vague with reasoning..seriously..I am like, I contemplate in my mind for several long miniutes about a thing and then get to the most obvious reason for something that others get to in seconds.. and that too..very naturally!! Anyway, that’s not the point..the point is, I am happy..and the reason might be that I shopped for some rally funky stuff this month (though I still don’t know when and how am I going to utilize it..as I work in the boring software world where you have a proper guideline of what to wear and what not to wear!! Trust me!! It actually happens..Human Rights!!Anybody listening?? Pls HELP) whatever it is..its a nice feeling..i am up and unplugged..and I hope it stays longer..wohooooooooo

P.S-- And just now I realized, Italics irritate sooo much!! So I have chaged the style of my blog..hope it looks fine now.

Its me!!

Trapped in a confusion

I live kindda hibernamted life

Just looking, listening at things

And not doing a single thing.

Knowing all is a problem in itself

And wats more!! I know that I know it all..

And still here I am

Mere spectator of the world around me

And so less a part of it..

I wonder what will make me change

What it will be that will make me change

Or more, if ever there will be anything that will make me change

I wonder..I think.. and still all this time..

I remain just the same..

I am back!!!

Yeah..One day, I got up, inspired by a good friend, my boyfriend and my own self, and started writing bolgs. THinking to turn the world upside down by the fire within ;->> but nothing much happened and the bubble burst, like it was never tehre!! But I am back now, with a promise that I will prove to be a regular this time. I hopw with this bolg writing, I will be able to define myself some day..and yes..also achieve Selfactualization (Got it from Pricess DIaries, my recent read!!).
By the way, can someone tell me how to make your blog visited by many people(apart from writing it very intelligent and interestingly, which I dont think I am doing at present.) But please, if someone knows, let me know, how you make most poeple read your bolg..

Actually, I want more inspiration, that there is at least someone, who is listening to this undefined soul. You know, it can be a way for me to define myself!! really..

First One

Yeah!! This is me, a little, young enthusiast, an optimist to the 't'. In a worls where everyone is trying to (and I think very well succeeding in), taking advantage of others, I sometimes feel totally lost. Thats the world around me where everyone is just boasting and showing off, for just that little thing he or she has done, just an otherwise routine task one has troubled for oneself and performed later on. And here am I, soo modest ,that can't even accept a praise gracefully, cant even voice what I know I have done the best... Why do I love being an anonimous? Why do I love being 'not so interested' in the routine gossip and ga-ga that goes around me? Then I feel why not!!! I am the way I am..what can I do if I dont find many things being talked around me not worthy enough to bag my intelligent comment!!

Good!! Why am I soo confused???